will you continue to polish your skills in being so hash with the words you say to me?

would you continue to malign me in this relationship, making me the bully when i am the one tearing myself to sleep?

when will i learn that there is only so much one can take?

你以后不要来找我

我不是你的baka

i am not going to be with someone who dont believe in me

dont ever msg me again or call me

i am too disappointed in you




i heard you.

i have a best friend who makes me cry.

and i love her.

come home soon girl, thank you for your wish for me even as you are away.

*

I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

But more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And you always give more than you take.

But more than anything, yeah, and more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

This is my wish
I hope you know somebody loves you
May all your dreams stay big

*

Rascal Flatts - My Wish

she gave me support, redemption, and courage.

he gave me my tears, his tears,every bit of care and love he could give with his broken heart....

and a ring.

i thank god i have them in my life.

thank you lynn and dave, i love you all.

i look at myself with you in the mirror,
and know how much we dont belong together.

i wept in guilt, regret, pain, and fear...
but these you cannot see... and you do not hear.

i was the girl next door, that personable face.
i was used to having a guy or two, fawning over me cos i was worth the chase.

but now i have you and you know it like i do,
i am nolonger what the world see me to be...
without you, i am of no value.

i want to keep you by my side and yet i dont...
i know you are a mistake but i love you.

i wish time would rewind itself,
and you can go to another being more worthy of your trust.

i regret everything i did...
including this decision i made.

i can cry till i go blind,
and i know you will never forgive nor forget.

i am sorry for the pain i put you through...
i know it isnt fair, but i cant help feeling it isnt fair for me too.

you can hate me for all you want.
but i will love you still...
because for all the wrong i had done in my life,
you are the mistake that will pain me till the day i die.

even though you will nolonger be around,
remember that i carry you with me still...

nothing changes my life and soul more than you do.
and i will never be the same again...

the day i let you go.

whatever you are going to say its not going to help


what words more appropriate down to the letter... to describe my thoughts.

and what irony... to hear it coming from the person
who deserves to hear them from me.



i will not cry on the first...

i will not cry again.

god, if you have mercy.... kill me.

how can you live your life leaving your feelings and emotions
in the hands of someone else?

how would you live this life when you cannot decide when you will be happy
and when you will not be?

you follow blindly, the feelings and mood of another....
not being able to keep up because you dont think like another...
feeling confused and afraid because you are led in a direction
you dont even know exist....

what kind of life is this?

and what kind of thing are you?

do you call yourself alive...?


she thinks everything good in the world comes from beauty.
she wants the good she deserves and the good she doesnt...
she works doubly hard to be beautiful, spending time with the mirror,
whether it shows a self she likes or something she loathes.
it is the only place she can see herself, and it is the only thing
that ever commands attention in her life without fail....

today the world sees her and discovers she has became one herself...
and sadly, a broken one that is useless to anyone.