i don't understand


as what consistently happens in my life evermore these days...

these are the words that come to me....

everytime i do something - real - different - seemingly interesting - for a change


... for my lousy mood.

and even with tries to comprehend, the more confused i will manage to get myself...

and the more complicated everything will become.

maybe i am not meant to understand, and there is no point in trying.

i realised i am just me ... and there is nothing so great about a two-lettered word.

there are things that are out of my league and it will only do me good if i keep away.
all i need is to recognise them, and stop believing that i can do everything...

... and if "i really want to somehow try for it"



i can try not trying to make a fool out of myself for once.

nobody has the right to do anything on my behalf.

if i don't please you i am out of your league - go elsewhere please - because you are not worth my change of personality.

don't tell me what you think i should and shouldn't be doing - i don't listen to people - i loathe them.

burning bridges - keep out

once again....

tell me why i live in singapore and not japan.

after all these years... i am still driven by material.

how disappointing.

明日は晴れた日であるか?