i will be away.... a substanial distance from where he is.

i have slready seen his reluctancy to let go,
and though i am pretty cool so far...


i know i will break somehow... maybe when he isnt around.



i hear the wind call your name
it calls me back home again
it sparks up the fire - a flame that still burns
it's to you i'll always return
i still feel your breath on my skin
i hear your voice deep within
the sound of my lover - a feeling so strong
it's to you - i'll always belong

now i know it's true
my every road leads to you
and in the hour of darkness
your light gets me through

i'll swim in your river - be warmed by your sun
bathe in your waters - cos you are the one
i can't stand the distance - i can't dream alone
i can't wait to see you - i'm on my way home

i hear the wind call your name
the sound that leads me home again
it sparks up the fire - a flame that still burns
it's to you - i will always...



always return.

Bryan Adams - I Will Always Return

the thought of a certain 8-stars hotel by the sea in a faraway country...
and a pair of newly-wed individuals,
rolling around in a fluffly, comfy bed grinning from ear to ear...
thoughts of having a band with a pink diamond on one's hand for life...
thoughts of not having to tell a taxi driver...
you have to drive to two places please

it all came when this dreamer listened to this song for the first time.



come and hold my hand and let me lead the way
by holding and kissing and loving and touching you
see myself through your eyes
until the day i hear you say you are mine

i'm never gonna let you go
do you mind if we kiss real slow
you're my hopes and dreams
it ain't no lie
i'm gonna be with you till the day i die

you're the one that i hold closer
you're the man i'm dreaming of
and i really, really love you
i just want you to know that

you are mine
there's no other one for me
keep in mind
you make my life complete
and tonight
we'll make love endlessly
cause you're mine
you're the one that i'll keep

i can't wait till the day
i hear you say
you're the one that i need
you're the one that i'll keep
for all time


Soluna - For All Time



music is a dreamer's best friend

is it.....

wrong

to expect out of a relationship?

they expected a better agent.
parents expected a decent daughter.
strangers expected a prettier iris.
i expected a token..... anything i can hold and cherish till the end of time.

why do we expect so much out of relationships?

why am i so desperate?

why do people set expectations not just for their lives, but mine too?

am i not free or intelligent enough to naively tell myself what i expect and dont really expect in life?


it is.....

wrong

to expect out of any relationship.

i am suddenly very tired of life.
i dont know why.

everything seems so wrong...
my right spells left.

you look at the sludge you are in, waist-deep,
and wonder why would anyone wade in so freely...

you want to turn and find your way home,
it took you another circle to realise you have none.

you look to the lighter things in life,
and tell yourself blasted tales about how every person has his cheer and cries...

you took comfort in the beauty you hold, not knowing where it came from...
not bothering where it may go.

you try looking further and to anticipate a shore.
you see one and it says "sorry, but you have been here before"

i am suddenly very tired of life.