there are too many things i don't believe in right now.

there are one or two things i wish to vanquish.

there is too much in my life that i think i should do and just didn't do it....

there should be a reason for everything.


the reason is i want to be alone and start all over again.


goodbye past... now show me my future.

finally.....

n_n*

they tell me that i am "too defensive".

i say i wouldn't need to be defensive if noone is here to hurl attacks at me.

maybe people should shut up and stop telling me, a "too defensive" person, to stop being "too defensive"... if i would change my ways i need not wait for you to come and tell me to do it now.

i see no wrong in trying to survive when you want to, knowing you are deserving of survivng and that you can survive.

i have a lot of anguish going on in me.

i don't know why you hate me the way you do, i just want you to execute mercy on me because i know i deserve better than i get.

i have every reason to cry.

you can take me out of this course ... only if i allow you to do so.

but i do not have the shoulder i need to lean upon by my side....

and he is just a cartoon to the world nomatter how much i love him...

i'll keep them thus, and wait for my prince to ride by

and then....



i'll spend one whole night with him by my side, crying in his arms.

you left me when i was having fun and the world smiled on me....

i guess i hadn't been good enough a friend to make you feel the same way.

i don't blame anyone for your absence... maybe just myself

i should have told you i love you every single day when you were by my side.




i love you.

nomatter where you go

why do one feels sad when the guy she loves marrys someone else?

shouldn't she be happy that he is happy now?

because she would like him to marry her so that she can be with him forever.

because she hopes that he would love her like the way she loves him.

so what when it doesn't happen this way?






.... shut up and move on.

and loving doesn't change because it's just a moment of sadness that hits me

insignificant in the lights of the loving i am entitlted to practice till the day i die

people.... in general should die.



one day, i'll go to sleep crying.... and hopefully never wake up.