Thursday, July 27, 2006

i look at myself with you in the mirror,
and know how much we dont belong together.

i wept in guilt, regret, pain, and fear...
but these you cannot see... and you do not hear.

i was the girl next door, that personable face.
i was used to having a guy or two, fawning over me cos i was worth the chase.

but now i have you and you know it like i do,
i am nolonger what the world see me to be...
without you, i am of no value.

i want to keep you by my side and yet i dont...
i know you are a mistake but i love you.

i wish time would rewind itself,
and you can go to another being more worthy of your trust.

i regret everything i did...
including this decision i made.

i can cry till i go blind,
and i know you will never forgive nor forget.

i am sorry for the pain i put you through...
i know it isnt fair, but i cant help feeling it isnt fair for me too.

you can hate me for all you want.
but i will love you still...
because for all the wrong i had done in my life,
you are the mistake that will pain me till the day i die.

even though you will nolonger be around,
remember that i carry you with me still...

nothing changes my life and soul more than you do.
and i will never be the same again...

the day i let you go.

Friday, July 21, 2006

whatever you are going to say its not going to help


what words more appropriate down to the letter... to describe my thoughts.

and what irony... to hear it coming from the person
who deserves to hear them from me.



i will not cry on the first...

i will not cry again.

will you continue to polish your skills in being so hash with the words you say to me? would you continue to malign me in this relationship,...