Wednesday, March 29, 2006

i have been running around telling people the things i had learnt... too busy to do all those things i avidly claimed that i love and totally enjoy doing.

for all the time i invested bringing up this new turn of my life... i harbour little hopes of them paying off handsomely.
for my pessimistic thinking i got chided by fellow colleagues and friends who really gave a shit about my future.

i just went out and do whatever i have to do .... being myself and keeping friends as friends .. always.
there's alot i could have done .. much more differently and probably a more efficient way to accelerate towards my fantasy of a louis vuitton wallet.


then with the spare time i am given to stop climbing for a while,
i spent every single minute in the love and arms of a man who had hung a notice from my neck to tell the world

"she is loved .... but she is free"

the time never seems enough and i end up in trouble trying to cheat more time out of everyone else to be with him.

i get tired now thinking of the life i had since the start of 2006.
it didnt reflect a very managed and decisive lifestyle.
but i see him working doublely hard because i am getting nowhere....

it makes me want to end up further than where the world expected me land.


even though you are on the right track, you will get run-over if you just sit there.

i am getting onto my feet now.

will you continue to polish your skills in being so hash with the words you say to me? would you continue to malign me in this relationship,...